Riding home yesterday, he told me that Jesus left us a check mark in the sky via the clouds [he didn't use the word via - that is my little embellishment] and then he told me that Jesus also left a door to Heaven in those same clouds. Saturday morning the boy was up with the chickens. Apparently he was Googling Jesus because I found it typed in the search on the tool bar. Simple yet so powerful. Thank you God for the innocence and sincerity of children.
I caught the tail end of the youth's session on the book of James. The youth pastor shared the following video and I found it overwhelmingly emotional.
The words of her weight loss struggles pierced my heart. I could not stop the stinging tears of regret and frustration. I wanted to run away and leave all of this anger at myself laying right there in that chair. [My levees are broken, my walls have come tumbling down on me.] How did I get to be this person sitting in that chair? [The rain is falling.] Giving up is easier than standing up. [Defeat is calling.] And at that moment she said the one thing I needed to hear: I've never asked God to help me in this journey. I've never asked for his guidance. [I need you to set me free.] I want to be healthy. I want to be happy with who I am. [Take me far away from the battle. I need you.] I will never be that skinny girl from high school and I am OK with that but I know I have to stop this insane denial and get with it. [Shine on me.]
I try not to get overly emotional but honestly, the tears have come easily the last few days. [No, I am not with child but thanks for wondering.] There is lots in this crazy head of mind [except sanity and an affinity to remember the simple things] and I would definitely settle for a slow down right about now. Maybe Gabe can find me some of those magic beans...if only it were that simple.
One day at a time and it will all be OK.
Can't help but laugh at the idea of googling Jesus. It's just adorable.
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